For the past few days, I've been trying to figure out how to word this post. I don't know that I came up with a solution but I hope you'll understand my point anyway. This was never my life plan. Don't get my wrong - I am very happy with my current life and there isn't much I would change. But this was not how it was "supposed" to be.

Back in my high school and college days, performing was my life. In high school, I was an active member of the elite concert choir, all of the school plays, and I was in one of the first classes when the school rebooted drama class. When I went on to college, I majored in Theater Arts and was very active in the Theater department. (My mother insisted I major in something "responsible" so I ended up with a double major in Communications.) My goal was to get a job in theater, preferably backstage, even though I knew I wouldn't be swimming in gold or anything.

Things changed in my second year of college. While I still adored my time in the theater, there were things outside of school that drew my attention away from my studies and I ended up dropping out. Unfortunately, that pretty much signed the death certificate for my theater career. I did do some dinner theater before meeting my now-husband.

I fully admit that my life now is much more stable than it would have been if I had stayed in theater. However, it would be awesome if I could quit my crappy bookkeeping job and find a way to get back to the stage. Until then, I will remind myself how lucky I am, even if I can't do what I love.